Fresh Eyes

I told you all (whoever you all are) that I wouldn't take years to post another blog! I am here and refreshed and slightly chilly, and I also have the Foals on (more on that soon), and I have decided to grace your eyes with a blog.

Sorry about that, I just thought I'd try and start a blog without using the words hi, hello, yo, wassup, awrite, wassapenin, y'alright, hows it hanging or evening, and instead wrote a jumbled silly looking sentence. Still, it beats me saying something like 'yo whats up muthafucka it's yo suga daddy Mark speakin' to all ma bros and hoes' (sidenote - it took me a second there to distinguish the correct spelling of 'hoes' - what actually is it? I tried 'hos', even 'hose'), which isn't exactly proper or me to say the least.

Anyway, another apology (I'm hardly setting you up for a happy blog here) for this slab of bad news (it's relevant to this post, it wouldn't make sense without it), but your favourite rambling blogger (I like that) had another memory blank yesterday. Which is pretty poor, 'cause I've had another two this year already (I think, something along those lines), which officially means I can't drive till 2011 now. Not that I'm all that bothered, I get by just fine on the train or bus. Anyway, for those of you who don't know, the definition of these memory blanks are, for a couple of minutes I suddenly forget absolutely everything (ish, I can't really remember [duh]). It usually takes a while to get all my memory back, but it's pretty spooky. However (yeah, there's a however involved in what seems like quite a shite thing), there's a small upside to these hiccups.

It might sound slightly odd of me saying that there's an upside of my memory essentially rebooting itself, but there is. It's the odd after effect that it leaves me with (not the potential damage to what I could call my ROM). It's kinda difficult to explain, I tried to tell my dad tonight. Imagine it like this - you suddenly forget everything, and then you go outside. You feel all the feelings that you first feel when you go outside, but they're all heightened, as if you haven't felt them in years, or in your entire life. The warmth, the cold, the stars, it's like you're looking at them all with the naivety of a child (I like that expression!), a clean slate, as if you've never seen them before. It's like everything's new to you. The cold air feels so fresh, and the stars look so bright (I'm using tonight as an example), and the air smells nice. You feel wind against you as if you haven't felt it in a long time, you see places that suddenly remind you of other times that might've slipped out your mind. Essentially, the entire world is put before you, and you are looking upon it with fresh, new eyes. It kinda makes you wonder why you've looked past everything before - for instance, you never really pay attention to the wind, or the cold, but when you feel it as if you haven't felt it in years, it's actually quite beautiful. It's kinda tough to explain without using cheesy adjectives or being really confusing.

So yeah, there's the one upside. The new newness of everything. It was nice and cold tonight and it felt nice to feel it, as weird and odd as that sounds. And as to Foals (I mentioned them earlier, if you've been lost in my new age zen ramble), their slightly odd and electronicky music kinda fitted the mood quite nicely.

Mark, out.
xxx

(afternote - how many brackets have I just used?!)



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